Wednesday, August 31, 2005

and the menu for tonight...

... after getting kb'ed by K Lee (for an excursion SHE initially organised), it's coffee with Al and Mikey @ Glenny!! Should be good from some porous conversation :P

...and it goes on and on my friend! Some people just STARTED singing it, not knowing what it was...

Monday
Work! Farewell dinner for Josh @... Yokohama?! Now that was a forgettable experience :P Not the best place to eat on a budget!! And that's what we were...

And then guitar group!! Was tired as, wasn't sure I'd go, but I did, and it was fun! I always get rewarded at these things... we played Michelle Branch's "2nd Chances", which I've been listening to on repeat for the last couple of days since :P

Tuesday
nate @ the movies!! Inspite of the YA controversy surrounding the movie the "Wedding Crashers", me and Kelli decided to go see it, and I have to say, that's a lot of hoo ha about not much :S I think American Pie was much worse... not to mention the Jessica Simpson music video that preceded it... but it was awesome to see a movie in what feels like the longest time... and a chuckle-worthy one at that too :P

Four score and seven years ago... I once posted a blog :P

Finally get a brief respite with which to update my online musings!! Have been off my feet and inundated with things to do since last Friday, which speaks less about my social life and more of my lack of ability to say 'no' :P

Where to start...

Friday Night
went to cell, played guitar (BADLY) for est and we learnt about the love language, "quality time" - now this is one I've struggled with in the past, and was good to get a bit more info about why I suck so badly @ it :P

Ended up @ home and online talking to miss ami-nation (get it, 'animation'??? :D) until 4am...

Saturday
... which leads into me waking up @ 4pm the following day :D Practiced with the band from five until B's fingers were just masses of bloody flesh (or 7:30pm) - weirdly enough, it didn't feel that long... I think as the song comes together, and you can actually see/hear it working, you get more excited, and the process becomes less laborious?

After which me and Birdz crashed K Lee's movie night with a pizza... uncky Bill challenged me to a ping pong duel, in which I got sent flaming to the score of 21-15... was close, but I sorta fell apart at the end :S

I put on Russell Peters (comedian that does the funniest chinese impressions) while we waited for the movie... and we ended up watching the whole thing and only starting the movie @ 11:30pm :S

It was Phantom of the Opera (the recent movie version), and whilst it was well done, I would have fallen asleep if I'd been watching it by myself - we ended up just laughing and cracking jokes all through it, and before I knew it, it was 2:30am :S Again, I slept @ about 4... seriously... there must be something about that hour for me...

Sunday
... but THIS time I woke up in time to play badminton (or 'baddies' as Vee puts it) with the YA's... was fun... got smacked in the face with a soccer ball, but was awesome to get some exercise!! Ate @ Star East and then raced home to change/shower...

Got to church @ 4 for practice... which means (since church ends @ 8), I was there for 4hrs!! :'(

BUT...

The band played!! First public performance!! And we've heard some good things about how we did from people, but the thing that I'm ECSTATIC over is... I didn't forget the words!! :o It was just a blast to be out there with the guys and to have it all coming together...

After which they had pancakes for sale for fundraising for the Indian Mission trip, which were really good! And then a bunch of us went to Gloria Jeans for coffee, and when that closed, the TAB...

And then again home @ 1:30, and online until... yeah... 4am... :S

There's a disturbing symmetry about the way I enter and exit the w/end...

Friday, August 26, 2005

random snaps from the last few days...

On Wed, did a Borders run with my good uni friend patti... managed to read a bit of Andrew Gaze's biography (the bit about when he was with the Spurs :D) AND catch up with Eps II and III of Star Wars in comic book form!! Yes, for those who are somewhat in disbelief, I haven't seen eps II or III... shattered I was from eps I, yes? Yes.

After which I met up with Josh, Birdz, Darren, Cheryl, Matt (TB) & Deb @ Rock Kung for some good 'ol congee... the photo of Josh below was from the encounter...

Thursday night I got to see the mistress of animation @ work @ her home... which was fun as, just hanging out with her (and getting random beatings). Then raced off to practice @ church for B's song, and by the end of the night we'd come up with this awesomely cool looking arrangement - seriously, if you're not doing anything Sunday night (or even if you are, cancel it :D), come down and check us out!!

His head is now mounted on my wall...

This photo is (freshly taken, hot off the press with my trusty camera phone) more of an illustration of what can happen if you (stupidly) don't wear any sunscreen when s/boarding - when I look @ myself in the mirror, I feel like I wouldn't be out of place behind a honky tonk piano... I mean, girls dig dark and mysterious, but this is a bit ridiculous - Look at the contrast between the WHITE iPod h/phones, and the BLACK lump of a head :S

Hi, I'm African-American...

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

so what's nate really like...

Some of the comments that I've been reading on Korea's journal have made me realise that my random blogging may be a little misleading :)

I'm not actually wandering around in desparate search for a partner... and neither am I wandering around that randomly :P

I AM though, excited about life, and scared. Some thing's have opened up for me in terms of direction, and what I feel that God might be leading me to.

Hahaha, I love to joke and discuss intellectually about relationships and all, but for me the dominating thoughts, my passion, have been about where I'm meant to be going, what I want to make of my life.

I'm lucky enough to be in a place where I don't feel the need for a relationship with another girl. Songs like 'angel of mine' give me a hopeful sneak preview of what it'll be like one day, but it's not a number 1,2 or even 3 priority...

Right now, I'm just focussing on preparing myself and heart for those things He's placed in my heart.

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

angels...

Last night when I was @ geeeeeeetarrr group, we were going through some songs that would be fun to play, and we came across "Angel of Mine" by Monica...

I guess if I had to categorise the song, it would be seen as somewhat bittersweet. A long, long time ago, this single was a present to/from someone that's now gone...

But right now, I don't feel that... right now, it seems like a pretty hopeful song :)

A song describing what it'll be like, when I finally find my girl.

Bleh... I have this one side, where I crack jokes left, right and center, irregardless of the sometimes overwhelming lameness of the content...

but, *sigh*... there's also this other side, that's as soft as a marshmallow... :)

the low down...

... after Hui dropped me off home, I jumped into my precious blue-turbo-charged-4wd baby and caught up with the people @ church - apologies again mikey that I couldn't make it to sofia's with you guys!

Reason was, I'd promised est I'd go to star east with 'em... so I did, ate there, and then we adjorned (est, elt, rog, andy q. & will) where we just cracked ourselves up talking about the issues of singles in churches :P

today I made it into work, got a little tiny bit done... had nandos for lunch, where I bumped into J Chan and BC... then afterwards went to geeeeetttttaaaarrrr @ andy q's... with andy o, vee and me. I wasn't actually expecting much, as I was really buggered, but we ended up have a pretty funny time :D

side note: I sold my exhaust!! Guy came by today, looked @ it and bought it... yay!!

pictures are supposedly worth 1000 words...

... so here's a 4k word essay :P




Sunday, August 21, 2005

Trip end...

Well, so much for blogging and taking heaps of photos… I never found myself sitting with my ibook and the motivation to type…

I’m sitting here @ the moment in the back of Hui’s car, as we cover the final leg of the return journey.

“How was it? How was the trip?” you might ask… and at this point in time, I have no conclusive answer :S

The good parts? Picking up snowboarding relatively quickly, being able to drive for all the fun, twisty bits. Meeting the awesomely nice strangers up there… every chair lift ride was a new story, talking to people from Melbourne, Sydney, Brisbane all the way to Koreans :P

For whatever time I figure out I had, I have to admit that it was at least good for what it was – I at least feel like I didn’t waste that time. On the same note though, I’m kinda glad to be coming back too. There’s just so much of life that I want to get back into :P

Don’t get me wrong… I think given the right combination of factors (i.e. if I had more time to spare), I would definitely have no qualms about staying longer – esp to investigate some of the pubs up there!! But at this point in time… there’s just so much I want to figure out first :P

So this is me, back in Melbourne (just passing through Nunawading now) and signing back on :D

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

counting the ways...

What I love, is the inconspicous way God surrounds me with awesome friends. It wasn't that long ago where I felt like I had none.

But Sunday night, when I hung out with the crew @ COC (yeah, we rock! :D), Saturday night when I debated theology in China Bar with the boys (everything from escatology to salvation doctrine :S), and Saturday, where I grew so much with my elder 'siblings'... has all made me realise, that I have some awesome brothers and sisters nearby :D

I love realising how blessed I am... and to top it off, it's actually a good day today as well :D

"if you are reading this blog it means that I have been unable to return..."

*ominous clouds rolling*... hahahaha, no, these will be my last couple of posts before I head to the snowfields of NSW :) The small convoy heads down tomorrow (Wed) morning, and is scheduled to return Sunday night... will be bringing my iBook up, and will be journalling and taking photos, so expect a flurry of posts when I return, buahahahah (note: that's 'Bua', not 'Bo')...

but now, to recap the events of yesterday...

As some had found out, it was indeed my bday yesterday :P I've hit the quarter century, and I'm not out yet!

I actually love being this old... well, maybe because I don't feel old @ all :P It's weird, but because of certain recent events, I actually feel like life is just starting for me...

As for the day itself, it was a real good one :D Had sms's, calls and e-mails coming through @ various hours of the way wee morn, so that all throughout the day I felt blessed :)

My supervisor bought a cake, and we had an impromptu afternoon tea, and then I had dinner with my family @ Limor's... all in, a fine day :D

Monday, August 15, 2005

WOW




Tonight we were @ Clayton church (me, Al, Mikey and Caiwin), and it was an awesome service - here are some random pics I took, one being Dechoko sucking on a foreign object which I presume he found on the floor, another of me and a pet rat that one of the Clayton members had brought to church, and the other of the 'crew' (Al, Mikey and Caiwin) :P

Funny thing was, I asked the girl if I could take a photo OF the rat (named Cooper, by the way, and actually quite cute (and fat, but I usually find fat things quite cute)), and she thought I meant WITH, and proceeded to place Cooper on my shoulder :S Have to admit, he was pretty well behaved...

Was fun to visit Clayton, love the people there, and Dan's an awesome preacher. Also quite amusing to walk in with three guys that are extremely good looking... was just funny as :D I'm lucky I'm not older and desparately seeking, cuz they were the wrong guys to be with if I was :P




... what a weekend :D

Friday was a complete blur, working flat out all day, being the last one to leave the office (*sniff*), racing home, eating, racing to cell, leading worship, going home and talking on msn till 3 in the morning...

And then waking up wayyyyy too early @ 7:30am :'( Went to the Surrender Conference (featuring Jackie Pullinger) which went from 9:45am-10:30pm, and in short, and without exaggeration, it has changed my life.

My plans for it, my dreams and hopes... the conference challenged me, stretched me and yet it also released me. It confirmed for me so many things that had been swirling in my head for the last couple of weeks and months...

... and now there's this plan, that's been so neatly formed in my head, and so amazingly confirmed by Jackie herself, that everytime I think about it, it just seems too perfect a fit, that there just seems to be no way I can mis-interpret this, like no way @ all.

AND if I was even having any second thoughts about this matter at all, the message that Dan Lian gave at Clayton Church Sunday night (www.gravitate.com.au) just sealed it, a talk entitled "Kill the cow and burn the plough".

I know God loves to repeat important things so we might understand... but WOW - I'm freaked out and psyched, and I LOVE being there, I want to take that next step.

Thursday, August 11, 2005

wanna be like mike... or nate...

no, not my dad (well I do), but this is in respects to mikey and his photo taking antics! Just checked out his blog (will put the link up on the side soon!), which is awesome as, everyone go have a click and a read :D Esp the plethora of photos he has!! Top stuff...

so this is me, taking a photo of myself, my mess, and my fantastic basketball beanbag! I love it... it has been one of my life long dreams (along with having an original NBA Jam arcade machine) to have one of those, and if by some random chance I got married one day, I will DEFINITELY take it with me...



... and on that same note, was actually feeling a little down before - had come back from music practice, and it wasn't quite what I wanted it to be... a place where I could find my God, and practice worshipping (not just singing (but that's important too!!)) Him... but it was more admin tonight, and i guess it did need to happen, time and place for all, right...

so here I was taking random photos with my phone, trying to figure out which one to post... and this one stuck out - see, my photos range from an exceedingly seedy grin (I dunno, my mouth is just weird), to my eyes being so firmly shut (I have this amazing talent for being caught on film with my eyes shut, it simply has to be experienced to be believed)...

but this photo, I look at it, and think, 'hey'... this guy looks hopeful... he looks like he's got a fun future... and you know what... it's weird, but it raised my spirits :P I began to believe it, I looked at the photo again, and grinned... "yeah! the guy looks like a total ass, but heck, he looks like his life is mega fun" :D

Boy... he looks blessed, doesn't he :)




... I mean... a basktball beanbag!! Need I say more!!

as the pot stands...

Have a bit of a mixed pot of emotions when it comes to relationships right now...

Probably a bit of melancholy and a hint of resignedness might describe it best, whereby I maintain only the faint hope for a happy future, and decide to play out life as more of primary concern. See what happens along the way, yada, yada that sort of thing :) I've been blessed with good friends and a life that allows me to be as busy/social as I've got time, the silver lining in the clouds... I guess...

Finally finished watching The Girl Next Door, a romantic comedy involving a girl that has a background in porn - no, not as bad as it sounds, it really is mostly a romantic comedy :)

Funnily enough, the thing that I took away most from the movie, is that freedom in which the two of them could be together, the freedom in which they could experience each other's care for one another - without worry for how stupid they might appear, and integrated into and apart of each other's lives. Not sure how realistic it is to aspire to, but it's something that looks like awesome fun... and maybe how a relationship should be orientated?

From the inside out, the heart to the outside, rather than the outside in, where circumstances dictate feelings.

I dunno... I guess... I want my next relationship, to be an awesomely fun one, to put it shortly... well... if there IS a next :S

something about wednesdays :)

what can I say about today... worked like crazy to get prototype up to scratch, still needs work :S At least it's keeping me entertained during the days I guess :P

Had scored some free tix to what Village called a "mystery movie" night - interestingly enough they were quite stringent on recording devices, even had hand held metal detectors :S

Movie ended up being Kiss, Kiss, Bang, Bang, which doesn't even have an official site up yet :S Starring Val Kilmer and Robert Downy Jnr (who were both actually pretty good in it), the movie though was really slow and dull :( Plot wasn't clever or particularly strong either... still, the cinemas @ Rivoli are a nice place to be, and it WAS free after all :)

Had dinner @ a nearby Cafe, made a little cheaper with an Entertainment Book coupon, and that was pretty much the night...

Monday, August 08, 2005

saturday…

after sleeping @ 4am Friday night, I woke up @ 9:30am, spent 10-1 helping some friends to write a song, had lunch with them 1-2, went home for 15mins, played badminton from 3-5, went out for dinner, stayed out @ glenny until 10pm, came home and played poker with some friends from 11pm-5am… *phew*, that’s a mouthful…

hehehe... awesome thing about dinner is that Sean (Susan's fiance) was working, and gave us coupons for 2 for 1 short stacks and 2 for 1 ice cream sodeas... worked out to be 5.90 EACH for dinner... how CHEAP is that... and then afterwards when me and Yen Pan went to Intencity to play games some guy was nice enough to leave $20 of credit for us in the Initial D machine!!

Was an aussie dude, young, and We'd watched him beat thoroughly every chinese-triad looking guy that had challenged him, and that was heaps!! And then, when we went to get on the machine next to him, he got up and told us to jump on his, 'cause he still had credits left! How nice is that?!

Hehehe... oh, and then after almost dying (went all the way down to having no chips at all), in the five hours it took to finish the game, I went on to win Poker :D

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

yet another must-have item!

I want one! It's a Pac Man hat!! Arggghhhh :D

Monday, August 01, 2005

Only Hope

There's a song that's inside of my soul
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold
But You sing to me over and over and over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
and pray to be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I know now you're my only hope

Sing to me the song of the stars
Of Your galaxy dancing and laughing
and laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that You have for me over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

I give You my destiny
I'm giving You all of me
I want Your symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs I'm giving it back

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

the heart

I asked a girl out last night, and when she said no and gave me the reason that she felt that she wouldn't be able to commit to me, I then argued about why she could for the next 1.5 hours :S

I woke up this morning realising just how stupid that was... I was expecting to debate someone into a relationship?!


Watched "A Walk to Remember" last Friday night, and I have to embarressingly admit that I got quite teary eyed :$

Movies that draw you in, and just emerse you in fear, excitement... in the case... the heart... I have profound respect for.

I came out of the movie, not so much wanting to meet a perfect girl, but wanting to be someone's perfect guy - to be in a relationship, where I could be free, to give and love her with all that I am.

survey says...

*phew*, after delaying posts to keep the w/end details @ the top of my blog, I've got a lot of randomness to get out my head :P

Starting with the results of a recent e-mail questionaire that got sent around :D


Subject: Re: Getting to know you...

So quiet @ work... why are offices so quiet... we need to start issuing
clacky keyboards to everyone. In an effort to stay awake:

1. WHAT IS YOUR FULL NAME? Nathan Yew Kane Leung

2. WHAT COLOUR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING? Blue 3/4 Pants

3. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? Blessed be Your Name - Matt Redman

4. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? ALSO Ferry's kon-loh-mee (yesterday's
lunch & dinner, haven't had brekky yet)

5. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOUR WOULD YOU BE? Gray

6. HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW? No idea about specifics, but it's been
absolutely pelting down sporadically :S

7. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? Well, Dad just sms'd from...
*actually reading msg this time*... a boat, on the way back to HK from
China...

8. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX? Hair. I know, it's
weird...

9. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT YOU THIS? Yah, heaps of people of sent
this one around... I'm sure there's someone in there I like... :P

10. HOW ARE YOU TODAY? Sleepy

11. FAVOURITE DRINK(S)? Anything new and interesting

12. FAVOURITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK? At the moment, Butterscotch Shnapps...

13. FAVOURITE SPORTS? Basketball, followed by everything else... yes, I'd
even be up for lawn bowls if we went to play (have taken lessons before too,

so watch out)...

14. WHO/WHAT INSPIRES YOU? People I know, living out there out there on the
edge

15. FAVORITE MOVIE? Batman Begins / Spirited Away

16. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? Yup

17. SIBLINGS? Two sisters too many

18. FAVOURITE MONTH? February

19. FAVOURITE FOOD? Most things mushroomy

20. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? War of the Worlds (or as Roger put it, "World of

the Worlds"...)

21. FAVOURITE DAY? Dunno... at the moment they're all blurring into each
other...

22. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT? Unfortunately, no

23. SUMMER OR WINTER? Summer!

24. HUGS OR KISSES? Time and place for both :) Don't make me choose... :P

25. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?

- That's right, like I'm REALLY going to answer "ONE NIGHT STANDS", and then

send it out to everyone...

26. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA? Choco...

27. DO YOU WANT YOUR FRIENDS TO WRITE BACK? Dunno... are there any friends
out there...?

28. WHO IS MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? Well, pretty much everyone who's
responded already :P

29. WHO IS LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? The people I forgot to forward this
too...

30. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING? H.Potter: The Half-Blood Prince

31. WHAT DID YOU DO LAST NIGHT? Saw animation short films in the city...

32. FAVOURITE SMELLS? Strange huh... shampooed hair for me too...

33. NIGHT IN OR NIGHT OUT? Night out :D

34. BUTTERED, PLAIN, OR SALTED POPCORN?

- SLATHERED with ze butter...

35. FAVOURITE CAR? Ferrari F430

36. FAVOURITE FLOWER? A rose is good

37. HOW MANY KEYS ON YOUR KEY RING? Tree... I have tree keys...

38. CAN YOU JUGGLE? Sure... if juggling is the simultaneous dropping of
multiple objects... otherwise, no.

39. RED OR WHITE WINE? Red

40. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY? That was way too long ago for me

to remember... I have trouble remembering what I did last week...

42. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE
MORNING?

- "Hmm... it's 10am... should I call in sick... I think I feel
sick...*sigh*, no, I have work that needs to be done, and I don't feel
sick... *rolls out of bed, crashes to the floor*..."

43. WHEN IS YOUR BIRTHDAY? August 15