day in the sun :)

here's another spin on a post title that I've used before...

I spent Sunday day having an awesome time with a really special person to me, when @ one point (eating a huge greasy burger @ St Kilda) I paused and I started to worry about the future, about whether this was sustainable, if it was real, if it will even be possible next year and if this was, as Mikey might have been referring to previously, as "false hope"...

I've found a knit of friends, that on appearances have nothing in common, but when we start to dig deeper, we share so much in common, and I'm beginning to really, really treasure them. And then the question comes up... next year... my plans... had I found them, only to lose them in a few months time?

If I've learnt anything in the last few months, it's to cherish the moments I have now, for now. To not hold onto them for any longer than I was supposed to, and to not live to preserve them in my future...

Only God knows how the future will unfold for each of us, and I wouldn't have it any other way.



I wish I could say I always felt so stoic, and knew that truth always, but there are times when I freak out a little...

... and He waits while I anxiety attack for abit... yell and scream (figuratively) for abit... run around headlessly... for a lot.



He waits.

... waits, until I finally stop being so stubborn...

... waits, until my words finally trail off...

... waits, until broken, I'm reaching out, and all I want, is my Father...



And then He takes my hand.

He picks me up.

And helps me to realise that there's this journey I'm on, that I've still got so far to go.